Catching up❤️

Okay yall. It's been a MINUTE. And by minute, I mean over a month. March/beginning of April were very difficult for me. For those that are close family, you know about my Aunt Deanna. For those that are not...she passed away. It was very unexpected and life altering. Death is never something we are really ready to accept, but especially with her. She was diagnosed with cancer for the second time in her life and it took her within 3 months. I had to get on a quick flight to Texas to make it in time to see her before she passed and I'm so grateful that I did, but it was very hard. I'm so sad that she will not know our baby or be physically present for our wedding but our baby will always know her and her love. Coming back to Seattle without any family here was extremely difficult. It's still hard to be away. I'm so grateful to have Steven in my life to help me when the waves start crashing. I feel like I have been in and out of a fog that has definitley kept me from updating on here. It takes a lot of energy to remain present in my day to day while maintaining a calm sense of being for baby X. Nonetheless, I'm doing it. ❤️ I had an appointment April 9th and I'm actually doing way better than I could have hoped for! I'm weighing in at 131 lbs with Blood Pressure of 108/70. That's incredible considering the emotional state I've been in! Once I got that update, it kind of clicked me back into "okay Tori. You've got this and you're doing great." I suppose this is what Motherhood/parenting is all about--no matter what you are going through on your end, their well-being and health will always continue to be necessity and your world can't stop just because you are experiencing something difficult. They still need care and love and attention. Gotta find that balance of caring for yourself, your emotions, and maintaining their world. I am nervous but very excited that I can do this because I already am! I'll be posting something separate to share the fun stuff Steven and I have been up to, I just wanted to share this first to let y'all into my brain and where I've been socially and mentally. I love all of you and can't wait to share what we have been up to!